Curtains

The fleshy curtains cannot block
the morning birds and their
excessive jubilation, yet they
remind me of your eyes -
my regular salvation.

The clock ticks vertigo
and a light bulb pops -
The birds swarm, shattering
slowly and messily
through my window
and curtains, pecking
the lies right out of my
abeyant blood.

Your eyes became the
texture or silence,
dilating my isolate reality
infinitely, and leaving me
with only orphaned feathers
and very real rips for light
to someday seep.

Hello!

, Hello!
, Look!
Your shadow
is as sweet
as the petite
flame
swishing
on the top
of a freshly lit
candle stick!

Grace

Like a shimmering spider, you
and your tasteless presence
waltz, not to me, but only my direction.
Here, your insipid allure prances like a drunken heron
wobbling with pestering grace.
Here, you become the single speck of existing alliteration,
the pupil in your own play's ireless iris.
Your softness never ends,


nor does your loftiness, however worthy
we dream it to be.
Finally - 
you fall, slowly snowing
your way, somehow to me.
Your lipstick removed
and your wings satin,
again.


I cannot pronounce - you will never apprehend, the perfect pain
and the depth of the well of the why that you are to me.

Frank O'Hara:

Death

1

If half of me is skewered

by grey crested birds

in the middle of the vines of my promise

and the very fact that I'm a poet

suffers my eyes

to be filled with vermillion tears,

2

how much greater danger

from occasion and pain is my vitality

yielding, like a tree on fire!-

for every day is another view

of the tentative past

grown secure in its foundry of shimmering

that's not even historical; it's just me.

3

And the other half

of me where I master the root

of my everyday idiosyncrasy

and fit my ribs like a glove,

4

is that me who accepts betrayal

in the abstract as if it were insight?

and draws it knuckles

across the much-lined eyes

in the most knowing manner of our time?

5

The wind that smiles through the wires

isn't vague enough for an assertion

of a personal nature, it's not for me,

6

I'm not dead. Nothing remains, let alone "to be said,"

except that when I fall backwards

I am trying something new and shall succeed, as in the past.

[I Kiss Your Cup]

I kiss your cup

which will not be used again

till you come back

Loud as a swan's transport

is your voice

amplified by the distance in your eyes

Snow of thought

I am on my back to you

and my lids twitch

I dreamt

that I was mysteriously murdered

with narcotics

And the dust

that makes a Rubens out of you

makes me a serpent

A Hill

Yes, it's disgusting

when you lose

control, but my

wilderness is love

of a kind, no?

And the purity

of my confusion is

there, it's poetry

in love with you

along with me,

both of us love you

in the same "My!"

Yes, but don't be

scared; poetry

is intangible and

there's no purity

in me

outside of love,

which you can easily wreck

and I can lose.

Clouds pass in

my notorious eye

but you, through

all, I see.

hidden sweethearts parade

imagine! The Hidden Sweethearts Parade
empty-handed joyful youthful souls
expressing death's decay in whimsical promenades
with absolute absence of physical roles
imagine, in thanks I prayed


prostrate spirits sponge the orbital dew
hanging gently out of the way
languishing the partition of only two
who, euphorically hidden inside the parade
never touch what they never knew


imagine, paradisaic sweethearts ever betrayed
whether by purpose or providence
they apperceived and elatedly obeyed
only through perfect sadness could they commence
always apart in the hidden parade

picnic

a circadian picnic begins
packed with mud
vitreous feelings
and broken violins


the objective is muddy
if it exists
and the objective twists
becoming a circadian study


habitual hiatuses candle waxy heat
fugitive dreams dream down screaming streets
whirling thunder flashes prosaic fire
literal hunger lacks desire


earth - and its humanity - 
and its reality - and its birth
is a quartz reality with quartz perceptions
equaling imaginary imaginations
(which may - or may not - work
in circadian picnics)


burnt rice sticks to the pan burnt
life sticks to life
herons, however, hear the call
primal erudition reduces earthly erosion


circadian balance found in waking
reveals the yellowness of life!
and the blending blueness of dreams
your lipstick-less lips remind me of life
and the muddy birds cock their heads
to me and disappear


the picnic on the balcony was enough
to rumble my heart and quiver my stomach
it was not comfortable
your white lips spoke, but never moved
ahoy said my stomach
and ahoy said reality
my heart is hoodwinked again
my heart is kin to bursting corporeal rythms