Saturday, December 22, 2018

In My Window

perhaps we ought to feel more imaginative
if not simply to be so
perhaps I am less a bird or a fish and more - say- a lemon
or, maybe that's just what a lemon would want to believe
or, maybe it's just because I have a lemon
not a bird or a fish
perhaps it has come to pass
an old man's dream

an old man's dream
so many taxes
a sweetened, narcissistic stone
ours: the river
still alone

it's just a dream
stitched with seams of aerated plastics
what dreams leave behind
are these - no, those - memories

old friend
it's time to feel blood again
freely
some sticks
in the sky
rhyzotomous shadows
in the sun, hi

butter me up
look with me

I Know What It's Like

I would love
-threadbare-
to focus on your problems
if you could just...focus
    on your problems
and do the same
    and
have more interesting
...problems

the fungus moves freely!
ha. no
it actually doesn't
get over yourself

I don't regret dying
but saying so doesn't stop it from happening
(I'm not talking about dying anymore)
maybe it's a feeling
[before the bomb
or, the assumption thereof]

photographs
with the sun in my eyes
of you
not knowing where this is going
(with) the sun behind

Naivete

truly
I'm writing all the time
the distance belongs
I do believe in heaven
the distance applies
the (sun) has died and I haven't
how will I find you
without eyes
be nearby
can you deny
(there is no one
in the pool
in Tennessee
in December)
-not that we are-
that it feels like 
we are at the center
-perhaps intrinsically-
(in all probability)
(can you deny
probability is stained by actuality?)
(and yes, that is what makes it probability,
but what if it wasn't?)
(I was about to do something)